Sad

So I am already upset by the fact that I can't be home with my family for Christmas, I am even more upset that my Mom's cell phone service has been suspended because she doesn't have the money to pay it. I wish I could pay it for her, but I just don't have the money to do so.

I know I am being selfish, but I really don't know what I would do if I can't call my Mom on Christmas to wish her a Merry Christmas. I know I will be going up there only 2 weeks after Christmas, but she doesn't know that. You don't know how horrible I would feel if I wasn't able to wish my Mom a Merry Christmas, and to tell her I love her.

She was the hardest person to leave when I moved down to Tennessee. The day before I left was Mother's Day and a few days before that I was in Halmark picking out my Mom's gift and card. I was standing in the card isle reading cards and I just started bawling, I mean full blown tears in the middle of Halmark. Now I will admit when I buy cards for loved ones I always look for the ones that say what it is I feel. That day it just made it even that more emoitional. I knew I was leaving the next day and had no clue when I would be seeing my Mom again.

So in October when my best friend had her second child, she asked me to be his Godmother. We figured out when she could have the my Godson's Dedication so that is why I am going home in January, well that is part of the reason, I get to spend time with my Mommy.

But, it still makes me sad that I won't be able to see her on Christmas, and now I may not even be able to hear her voice. I am going to call her tomorrow while she is at work, to see if maybe her phone with be on by Christmas.

Anywho, I have whined enough.

Until later...

This and That!

Well I started this blog to track my progress of getting pregnant, only problem is we have hit a bump in the road. I just found out a few weeks ago that I am in the beginning stages of Type 2 Diabetes, and my Doc wants me to hold off for a bit before getting pregnant :(

I am really upset by this, I was really hoping to get pregnant early in the New Year, but that doesn't look like it is going to happen. I know God has a plan for Joe and I. I just have to be patience.

Anywho, I know I just started this blog and this is only my second entry, I plan on using this place more and more, for anything and everything. I am even thinking about changing the name of this blog. Since no one has even been here yet, no one is going to know the difference...lol.

I can't believe that Christmas is only 3 days away, I am really excited and sad at the same time. Excited becuase I love Christmas, I have always loved it I love decorating giving presents and yes I even love getting presents...lol. But my most favorite thing it spending time with my family, and that is what makes me sad this year. My family is in PA and I am TN. I am really starting to miss my Mom and my sister and my niece and nephew.

Yes, I have my husband and our dog, but I know I will be feeling the void of not having my Mom around and her yummy food!

But, there is a bright side to all of this, in 19 days I am actually flying back to PA for a few days to see my family and to meet my best friends son who is also my godson for the first time. I can't wait til then. My mom has no clue that I am coming. So I am really looking forward to that, and also looking forward to a cheese steak...lol.

Well I think that is all for now. I have to work in the morning so I guess I should get to bed.
Merry Christmas Everyone!!!!

Cynthia